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[heartlands]

i will make this look nice later

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Re: day 254

[heartlands]

You didn't put it dumb, but - what do you mean?

Re: day 254

[audacity]

You've met me.

Re: day 254

[heartlands]

Yeah...?

Re: day 254

[audacity]

Can you really...see me living in some small town, making nets for fishing, living with some super nice people who never get frustrated or upset or anything, visiting Crystal and Sunshine and their baby?

Re: day 254

[heartlands]

I'm not sure you'd be happy doing that, yeah...

Re: day 254

[audacity]

Definitely not. And that's what they want.

Re: day 254

[heartlands]

Hopefully they'll accept it when you tell them that.

Re: day 254

[audacity]

...they don't really have a choice. It's not like they can stop me from going back on the ship.

Re: day 254

[heartlands]

I know, but isn't it going to suck more for everyone if they make it go that far?

Re: day 254

[audacity]

I know, I know. It won't. I'm just saying, they kinda have to accept it...one way or another.

Re: day 254

[heartlands]

Yeah. But let me know how it goes no matter what, okay? Or if you need to vent more or anything.

Re: day 254

[audacity]

For sure.

How's it been going for you?

Re: day 254

[heartlands]

Like - being back in the city?

Re: day 254

[audacity]

Yeah, being back. I know it hasn't been long, but you know.

Re: day 254

[heartlands]

It's definitely weird. It's like...

[pauses for a minute]

I don't know if this is gonna make any sense.

Re: day 254

[audacity]

I'm listening.

Re: day 254

[heartlands]

[pauses for an additional second to decide how to say this]

I don't know, it's like... I was excited to come back and have things be normal for a while, but it still doesn't feel normal. Like...

I have to keep catching myself before I say something about the Performances or the visions or anything, because nobody who hasn't been there is going to believe us. I kinda feel like I have to be on guard all the time so I don't make anyone think I've lost it by bringing stuff like that up, and it feels like there's this distance between me and everyone who lives here because of it.

Re: day 254

[audacity]

[ leans against his shoulder ]

...yeah. I've been thinking about that a lot. There's just stuff no one else gets.

Re: day 254

[heartlands]

Yeah. And it's like... I mean, I know I've got all of you guys, and it's not that I want anyone else here to have to know firsthand what's it like, but...

[leans!!]

It's just weird. I guess I just have to find a way to deal with it.

Re: day 254

[audacity]

Random people on the street just don't know what it's like...to eat ramen and ice cream for five days running, and not because you're broke.

Re: day 254

[heartlands]

[pauses and then laughs]

The most traumatic thing we've been through, clearly.

Re: day 254

[audacity]

It's just kind of insulting, when you're walking past the state of the art water park to get your warm meal of weird menu food.

Re: day 254

[heartlands]

Insult on top of injury for sure.

Re: day 254

[audacity]

Sooooo much injury. I've literally lost track of all the dying now, which sounds kinda bad? But like.

Re: day 254

[heartlands]

...Yeah. You guys keep getting it rough.