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[heartlands]

i will make this look nice later

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Re: 240

[restitui]

[ nods, ]

So. Yeah.

I think - know - a lot of the times it's hard for me to bring stuff up. So I try not to?

Re: 240

[heartlands]

I don't think that sounds terrible. I mean, it's kind of you not to want to upset him.

You know you can always talk to me about it, but - is there anyone else, if you're not comfortable discussing it with him?

Re: 240

[restitui]

[ opens mouth. closes it like he decides what he was saying wasn't what he wanted: ]

[ shakes his head ]

I was trying to say - I think he's right.

I struggle a lot with trying to rely on people that way because when they worry I worry? And I think sometimes I can't figure out of it's what I'm feeling or they're feeling so it's easier if I don't -

[ Feel probably. ] And then yesterday happened and I feel [ is there a word ]

I feel like part of me in still in that room screaming.

[ nailed it. ]

Re: 240

[heartlands]

[...]

What do you think that part wants to say?

Re: 240

[restitui]

... that it's hurt and mad, probably.

Re: 240

[heartlands]

I think that's fair. I mean, after everything that's happened.

Re: 240

[restitui]

... Yeah, I know. That part's normal.

[ Or it should be normal. It feels normal. He scrubs at his eyes- ]

I guess I'm just emotionally tired and my brain feels like spaghetti so it's getting to me.

Re: 240

[heartlands]

Well - you can chill here tonight if you want. We don't have to think about anything tonight.

Re: 240

[restitui]

Are you sure? I mean, I've learned the lounge has pretty comfy sofas.

[ the stupidest admission he could make ]

Re: 240

[heartlands]

—Have you been sleeping in the lounge?

Re: 240

[restitui]

Um.


Nnnnot intentionally? Okay, last night might have been intentionally.

Re: 240

[heartlands]

[...]

Give me an order.

Re: 240

[restitui]

What?

Re: 240

[heartlands]

It doesn't have to be a big one.

Re: 240

[restitui]

[ ??? he's still ??? ]

Okay?

Tell me one thing you really like about yourself?

[ that counts right??? ]

Re: 240

[heartlands]

—Oh. Um. I mean, I like to think I'm pretty compassionate.

More importantly! Now I can get a bigger bed from Nana and you can stay here whenever you want.

Re: 240

[restitui]

Oh.

[ that sure sinks in hard. ]


... I think that proves you're way more than just "pretty compassionate".

Re: 240

[heartlands]

Or maybe that you deserve somewhere you feel safe.

Re: 240

[restitui]

[ if that's not a critical hit. ]

[ he sort of freezes forgetting to breathe for a second. for a different reason. ]

Re: 240

[heartlands]

...What is it?

Re: 240

[restitui]

[ nope, nope, nope, nope - ]

I don't want you to think I feel unsafe in the Disorder but also the rest of my thought is too embarrassing to say.

Re: 240

[heartlands]

Maybe safe wasn't the right word. Comfortable...?

[laughs a little]

You're really talking to me about embarrassing thoughts?

Re: 240

[restitui]

[ ... ]

[ groans and rolls over so he's not facing him, it's fine. ]

I know you're not using my ability to hear you against me but I feel like you're using it against me. [ It's at least a Mild attempt at a joke. ] You've got to promise not to laugh at me or I'm going to lounge sofas.

Re: 240

[heartlands]

If you go to the lounge sofa I'm going with you, but I also won't laugh.

Re: 240

[restitui]

Oh my god.

[ the overdramatic tones of a teenager as its his turn to grab ginghams pillow and hide it in for like a solid thirty seconds. partly to work out the feeling partly because he's going to die ]


- You're right. That I feel safer sleeping near someone? [ he's quieter, more super dying: ]


And I feel safe with you. Specifically.