I know I should be happy because that was a whole goal I had? To find him.
But even knowing that a couple people were looking for him and that a lot of things happened to make it happen, it feels too easy? Fast? I don't feel prepared for it at all - like conceptually a whole family being involved did not register in my brain.
You don't need to feel like you should be happy if it's complicated. There's a lot of nuance, especially when there's more people than you bargained for.
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Do you want me to meet them? I mean, would that help, or would that just be more overwhelming?
[ The offer makes him go silent as he looks away. He squeezes his hand and then asks: ]
Do you want to meet them?
They did ask if I could come by for dinner as much as possible while we're here - which is, totally fair. And I know they're trying really hard not to put too much pressure, but it does get overwhelming.
I only want to meet them if you think it would help you out. If you think it would just make things more complicated or overwhelming, I don't mind at all just listening to you vent.
[gives a hand squeeze in return]
And keep in mind you can say no to dinner with them whenever if it's too much.
... I want you to meet them, too? Especially him. You're just as important to me and - You'll say it won't sound stupid, but it kind of sounds stupid. A reminder there are a lot of important things to me in the life I have now in the middle of it is nice?
[ smiles softly, ducking his head. ]
I kind of already have been. Aside from the first meeting - but it's starting to feel like running.
One of them you might meet rather we mean to or not since he goes to our school now. [ which is an impossibly weird feeling. he pulls out his phone with a glance at it. ] How about in a little while - if you're free?
Also, no, it's so kind of running when your first thought is "maybe I'll be back on ship tomorrow and I won't have to face it".
[ and as if on queue and (nebulously not blessing fast because npc but still Fast) it's like.... a color-swapped version of phoenix because i can do that unlike the mcu. identical except for white hair and green eyes. ]
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[ he offers a weak sort of shrug. ]
I know I should be happy because that was a whole goal I had? To find him.
But even knowing that a couple people were looking for him and that a lot of things happened to make it happen, it feels too easy? Fast? I don't feel prepared for it at all - like conceptually a whole family being involved did not register in my brain.
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Do you want me to meet them? I mean, would that help, or would that just be more overwhelming?
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[ The offer makes him go silent as he looks away. He squeezes his hand and then asks: ]
Do you want to meet them?
They did ask if I could come by for dinner as much as possible while we're here - which is, totally fair. And I know they're trying really hard not to put too much pressure, but it does get overwhelming.
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[gives a hand squeeze in return]
And keep in mind you can say no to dinner with them whenever if it's too much.
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[ smiles softly, ducking his head. ]
I kind of already have been. Aside from the first meeting - but it's starting to feel like running.
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[shakes his head]
I don't think keeping your own limits in mind is the same as running. You know?
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Also, no, it's so kind of running when your first thought is "maybe I'll be back on ship tomorrow and I won't have to face it".
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[bumps against him a little]
At the very least, if you need a break while we're there, I can pretend something came up and we can bail. Fair compromise?
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[ huffs a tiny laugh at the bumping but otherwise looks appreciative when gingham speaks. leaning down to press a quick kiss to his cheek. ]
Fair. And in case I haven't reminded you lately: You're amazing and I love you.
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[shifting a little to kiss his cheek]
I love you, too. [teasing:] And I guess you're pretty cool.
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We can both admit my coolness points are nonexistent.
[ it's a joke and not at all self-disparaging. ]
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[ said fondly as he types something in his phone. ]
We'll see if you change his mind when you meet him. Which - he can walk us there if we want?
[ in the cautious tone of do we want that ]
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[hand squeeze]
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And at the risk of sounding lame in the midst of on-going conversation he does in fact seem... cool? Very excitable.
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He should be. He asked where about we were -
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- Sup?
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[doesn't let go of phoenix's hand, but turns to face tommy - giving him a wave with his free hand]
Hi. Um, I'm Gingham. Nice to meet you!
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I know who you are.
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I did not say that much.
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[ which speaking of!! he offers his hand to gingham. ]
Jonah, but people call me Jon.
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Regardless of, um, how much you did or didn't hear... I'll stick with the 'nice to meet you'. Jon's a cool name.
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