[pauses for an additional second to decide how to say this]
I don't know, it's like... I was excited to come back and have things be normal for a while, but it still doesn't feel normal. Like...
I have to keep catching myself before I say something about the Performances or the visions or anything, because nobody who hasn't been there is going to believe us. I kinda feel like I have to be on guard all the time so I don't make anyone think I've lost it by bringing stuff like that up, and it feels like there's this distance between me and everyone who lives here because of it.
Re: day 254
I don't know, it's like... I was excited to come back and have things be normal for a while, but it still doesn't feel normal. Like...
I have to keep catching myself before I say something about the Performances or the visions or anything, because nobody who hasn't been there is going to believe us. I kinda feel like I have to be on guard all the time so I don't make anyone think I've lost it by bringing stuff like that up, and it feels like there's this distance between me and everyone who lives here because of it.