A little of both?

It's [ stupid. It's not stupid, but he wants to say it. His gaze stays downwards. ]

I don't feel like my life's my own. Or like, the more we're here the more I see him and -

Maybe we aren't really them, but some part of us is them? It doesn't bode well. His entire family died helping save the world. Half the superheroes on their team going missing or die too it's like -

[ Shrugs. ] What does that mean for me?